Christmas 2012 was a funny ol' affair. Everything felt so very different but maybe that's a good thing, maybe that sparked the start of a new and better relationship with myself. First off, it was the second year without my Gran which was heartbreaking. Secondly, it was another Christmas spent without someone in my life. Thirdly, it was the first Christmas where I had been open about my mental health, and fourthly... that time the year before I'd been sipping champagne all dressed up in a floor length black dress, embellished around the bust, feeling very feminine and pretty indeed. Last but not least, this was the first Christmas we had spent in our house on Havisham Close. In the 15 years that we have lived here we have not once had Christmas day here. It has always been a tradition to go round to my Grandparents and indulge in a little [too much] turkey whilst we had the family round. Unfortunately, since my Gran's passing, the family hasn't been as intact as we'd have hoped [hence the Christmas abroad] and we needed a change of scenery.
Whilst it was a funny one, I really enjoyed our quiet little celebration. Previous plans of an additional guest meant that we weren't eating until later on in the day anyway, so on Christmas Eve we twaddled over to my Grandad's after I finished work and indulged in some drinks and seafood galore. More drinks were drank and I went to bed with two painkillers and a stomach full of beer, cider, and wine. Not exactly the best move but I was hurting. Christmas Day itself was lovely - mulled wine was made, puddings were prepared (for Boxing Day mind, we were too stuffed on the actual day), tables were dressed, turkey was cooked, and we finally had our first Christmas at our home and we shared it with some wonderful people. There's nothing quite better. In the centre of the table we had four candles, lit for my beautiful Gran. She was there with us on that special day, in each of our hearts.
I hope you all had a wonderful day and shared it with those you love. I hope you told them that they are special to you, that they each hold a special place in your heart and soul, and that no matter what happens you'll always be there for them.
|Mulled wine :)|
|Candles for my Gran|
|Smiles and my mulled wine|