Christmas 2012 was a funny ol' affair. Everything felt so very different but maybe that's a good thing, maybe that sparked the start of a new and better relationship with myself. First off, it was the second year without my Gran which was heartbreaking. Secondly, it was another Christmas spent without someone in my life. Thirdly, it was the first Christmas where I had been open about my mental health, and fourthly... that time the year before I'd been sipping champagne all dressed up in a floor length black dress, embellished around the bust, feeling very feminine and pretty indeed. Last but not least, this was the first Christmas we had spent in our house on Havisham Close. In the 15 years that we have lived here we have not once had Christmas day here. It has always been a tradition to go round to my Grandparents and indulge in a little [too much] turkey whilst we had the family round. Unfortunately, since my Gran's passing, the family hasn't been as intact as we'd have hoped [hence the Christmas abroad] and we needed a change of scenery.
Whilst it was a funny one, I really enjoyed our quiet little celebration. Previous plans of an additional guest meant that we weren't eating until later on in the day anyway, so on Christmas Eve we twaddled over to my Grandad's after I finished work and indulged in some drinks and seafood galore. More drinks were drank and I went to bed with two painkillers and a stomach full of beer, cider, and wine. Not exactly the best move but I was hurting. Christmas Day itself was lovely - mulled wine was made, puddings were prepared (for Boxing Day mind, we were too stuffed on the actual day), tables were dressed, turkey was cooked, and we finally had our first Christmas at our home and we shared it with some wonderful people. There's nothing quite better. In the centre of the table we had four candles, lit for my beautiful Gran. She was there with us on that special day, in each of our hearts.
I hope you all had a wonderful day and shared it with those you love. I hope you told them that they are special to you, that they each hold a special place in your heart and soul, and that no matter what happens you'll always be there for them.
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| Mulled wine :) |
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| Candles for my Gran |
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| The table |
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| Smiles and my mulled wine |
You looked beautiful my dear! I'm glad you had a good christmas! Xx
ReplyDeleteGlad you managed to have a nice day. Christmas can be so hard as it just brings certain things back to the forefront. We lost my Nana earlier this year, so this was our first without her, but in addition I was on the other side of the world from my family, so in a way I'm kind of glad it's over - now we can get on with the new year and new beginnings :)
ReplyDeleteHope you're well lovely.
Mel xx
It was as painful as it was painless. A beautiful day spent with the most important people. I time for reflection and rememberance and a time for readiness for the next chapter in your life
ReplyDeleteMuch love as always xxx
You look really pretty! Glad it was a nice day for you, it is always difficult when Christmas feels different but it is still a happy time! x
ReplyDeleteGlad you still had a good day Rachel :)
ReplyDeleteSounds like you had a lovely day despite the few minor hiccups you have mentioned! I hope you've managed to find peace with all the horrible things happening & take that through with you to the new year! Really enjoyed reading this :)
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